Inner Demons

I believe God made man to be perfect, for us to live perfect lives and to always be happy. Well, Adam and Eve messed that up. With the introduction of sin into the world their children inherited so many demons that always stalk us, always tempt us, always try to make us stumble, fumble and fail.

No matter how far removed you think yourself from evil, from the mistakes of generations gone by, those demons always seem to find us. Your demon is likely different then mine; it might be gambling, alcohol, drugs, depression, lust, dishonesty, fear, or whatever. It seems there are just as many demons to tempt people to fail as there are people. No matter how committed to truth, honesty, growth or purity we are, these demons will find us and get us.

We are all human, we are weak. So it is inevitable that these demons will eventually overpower us, sometimes we won't even realize it, if our guard is down. Nothing grieves me more then the horrible things I've done once I let my demons overpower me. I let down my guard, I let them control me. I hate them for it, I hate myself for it. I have committed sins against the ones I loved most, and I paid a heavy price simply because I had not the wits to keep my eyes on those things that were the most important.

These "demons" that we all bear, that have haunted humanity since the beginning. They don't have to get the best of us though. We can keep our guard up, we can follow the things that are important in life; love. Love is the one thing in the universe that matters, and if you have that, truly and deeply, all other things will fall into place. The enemy of love is selfishness, and selfishness is the basis for all the evils of this world, crime, hate, death, war, even something as simple as cutting someone off on the freeway is born out of selfishness. I let selfishness take me, and I paid the price, a price beyond what I can bear to pay.

Never will I let my demons control me like once they did. Not after the price that I paid, not after losing what I treasured most. My guard will remain up against selfishness, and love will fill my heart so that there is no room for the dark to enter.

Why you are on my page, why fate brought you here, I do not know. But regardless of reason, you can walk away with something invaluable. The demons we face everyday, we can't stop them from tempting us, we can't stop them from being there, but we can stop them from controlling us. It is our life, it is our choice. Take a look at yourself, whoever may read this. Find your demons, never let down your guard to selfishness or whatever demons you find. Fill your heart with love. People don't look at their faults enough, and they change them even less. Here is your chance, internet wanderer. My promise to you is this, if you follow my advice, you're life can change and the world can change.

Ok, rant over, I'm feeling better now.